January 2009
Alicia.
I want your camera the more I see your pictures.
what/who's life's creator?
I feel like something is missing from my life and I have no idea what it is. I’m sitting here and I feel so awkward because I feel like my life is incomplete. The way it feels makes me think that life will never ever be complete until I die. But maybe that’s just it… maybe I need God back in my life. I don’t want there to be nowhere to go when I die. The way my life has...
bittersweet day
Ten things to say to ten different people 1. I really hope you don’t think I ignored you. I’m sorry you felt upset… but what was I supposed to do when you told me that? It’s almost too awkward. But I don’t want to stop being friends. 2. Ouch. Cons outweigh the pros? But I’m a pro! 3. I don’t know why I’ve still haven’t gotten over you, missy....
my english warm up
I felt the air rushing against my skin, pulling each strand of hair apart and away from my cheeks. I could’ve only guessed that I’d been falling… honestly, I had no idea if I was falling, flying, or if I had left a window open. When I felt a hard pound on my face I still couldn’t decode the array of possibilities that kept me from moving or having control. After I opened my...
you know what i really hate?
I hate being half Vietnamese and not even knowing how to speak my own langauge. People always say… “Well you’re half…”
I really am done with that being the excuse, mainly because that’s a shitty excuse. I really want to go to Vietnam and understand what people are saying. I feel like a shame or disgrace to my ethnicity.
Currently at the moment:
I am hating...
what's going on with my mood?
Oh my goodness. I’m feeling so wierd right now.
First I’m depressed of being single.
Next, I’m kind of happy talking to my friend in Canada.
Now, I feel like I’m the only one on the planet and I miss everyone!
What the hell. I feel like a mood changing fool.
Guess what? I think I might be tired of being single. But honestly… I truly don’t know…
I’m not desperate. I just want to know what it feels like to hold on to someone and call them… mine.
my phases of life since 7th grade
7th- Preppy boy that wanted to be friends with everyone.
1st girlfriend
warming up to middle school
8th- Cool kid wannabe with an obnoxious group of friends.
Met some really genuine friends (minus the group)
Got rid of friends
Made really good grades
Discovered what peace and relaxation could feel like
Aspired in photography
9th- Timid, renewed band kid that stressed way to much.
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Update.
I’m just living life one day after another, hoping to grasp a new perspective of happiness.
That wording was confusing to me… In other words…
…I’m just chillin with life and hopefully life won’t suck on the way.
AGH. I hate being confused about life when I have no reason to be confused? Every sentence I read/type/hear is confusing me. Actually…...
guess what?
i have no resolutions for you all… yet. :(
oh well.
School kind of sucked. But I did enjoy seeing friends again. :)
Same old tumblr post: Sometimes you make me depressed when I think about you. It’s kind of stupid how you’re usually on my mind. I feel idiotic when you seem to be the only girl I admire. I hate how it’s like you hardly make contact with me. I get irritated at how I think of you when I sit around and do nothing. I...
2008 was probably the best year
…of my life. I learned and grew up A LOT. I feel like I’m more mature than I have been and I like that feeling. Makes me feel all wise and what not. Haha.
2008 was just an all around good year for me. I changed for the better, and I want 2009 to be an amazing year to remember.
I’ll post my resolutions once I have ALL of them sorted out. (:
P.S. That Cullen picture is fucking...